Not looking for any advice. Not looking for anysympathy. I just need a place to put some words down. I'm loosing my mind. I'm making dinner. Makes me think of her. I do the dishes. Think of her. I wake up I think of her. 2.5 years of my life wasted beliving her love was true. Beliving in what we had was real and it would last forever. Soal mate. Is that real? Love. Is it worth it. My pearents have been married for 40 plus years and get along great. I want what they have. For the longest time i had gave up on it. What ever happened happened. Then she came along. Turned my world up side down. Oh what a fealing. I was on top of the world. Got a local job. " I drive truck" We got a house. Got engaged. Then rough fincial times hit. We didn't communicate well and we where both depressed. I'm the one that always tryed to talk. She keept it all clamed up. To the point she couldn't deal with it and got rid of me so she didn't have to worrie about it. But we started talking again. She still loved me. We got back togeather and we talked about so much. We vowed to always communicate. It was great again. But now im back over the road. All of a sudden she can't take it. My income is low right now due to slow freight. Shes been off work due to an injury. And now she can't stand me being gone all the time after she pushed for me to go back over the road. I'm hurt. but more flustrated and disapointed this time. Why are people so willing just to give up nowadays. Isn't love worth fighting for. The worst part of it is I could really use my best friend to lean on right now. I'm hurting. And i wish i could call my best friend for a little support. But I can't. The reason I can't is because she was my best friend. An my best friend just broke my heart.
your heart will heal and this willmake you stronger in life,and it's her lose because you are a person with a heart that has feelings,and there are over 200,000,000,000 ton's of fish in the sea.l May your next love be hotter then the last and life long.
run
x2 on both :)
Quote from: broncomudhead on February 07, 2009, 12:28:26 AM
your heart will heal and this willmake you stronger in life,and it's her lose because you are a person with a heart that has feelings,and there are over 200,000,000,000 ton's of fish in the sea.l May your next love be hotter then the last and life long.
Quote from: Econo-box from Hell on February 07, 2009, 01:41:54 AM
run
Dude there are 6 billion people on the planet...3 billion are women!
Quote from: Disturban on February 07, 2009, 05:10:54 AM
Dude there are 6 billion people on the planet...3 billion are women!
x2 well... these days bout 1 billion are both or not sure.. but ignore dem ones...
Start your fun here...100% FREEEEEEEEEEEEE http://www.plentyoffish.com/ ;)
if she's gonna leave you when thing's get hard is she really what you need and want from a wifey? when times get hard you need someone that will be there for it all the good the bad and the ugly, you'll find someone that treat you like you need an want so keep your head up it'll get better :+)
that sux but the one thing ive learned in my time on this earth is everything happens for a reason and it may not be clear to us why it happens but it does for a reason and youll find that perfect perosn somewhere sometime theres a bigger plan for you and shes just not part of it things will get better it just takes alittle time and youll feel better guaranteed
i had same thing happen to me but cept she came back and we re doing great so far .. i couldnt ask for more but i know what u mean after doing all those things , love do crazy things for peoples , even myself
Now is a trying time, very tough out there is she is going to run when the going gets tough, why would you want to be with someone that obviously doesn't love you enough to stick it out with you if I were you I'd be running. I can't imagine losing my girlfriend of 3 years but if she had an attitude like that it would be easy.
man it will all work out in the end. with or eith out her. if its ment to be than it will be, if not then nope
Quote from: Bigdaddy on February 07, 2009, 02:49:10 AM
x2 on both :) Quote from: broncomudhead on February 07, 2009, 12:28:26 AM
your heart will heal and this willmake you stronger in life,and it's her lose because you are a person with a heart that has feelings,and there are over 200,000,000,000 ton's of fish in the sea.l May your next love be hotter then the last and life long.
Quote from: Econo-box from Hell on February 07, 2009, 01:41:54 AM
run
x3 on both been there its no fun but not worth beatin your head in over it
A recent blog on myspace. It's been a little more than a month and i'm still going crazy. But i there was a couple of cool poetic moments in here. Some of you may enjoy or you'll think im crazy. probly crazy thats what i'm leanning towards.
Date: Feb 28, 2009
Bla
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Thats is true everyday except for one. The last day of your life. Lately i've become more focoused but theres moments everyday that i wish that stament wasn't true. So im home right now. But it dosent feal that way. I feal like i don't have a home. My truck auctaly feals like home now more than anywhere else. When i started driving that was the last thing I ever wanted to happen. I've been cost to cost and seen more than most everyone i know. I've seen the sun rise over the water in most every state on the east coast and have seen it set in california and have covered many points in between. I've seen the mountians in the arizonia desert. Been stuck on a snow covered mountian in upstate New York. Seen rush hour in NYC, Chicago, DC, Atlanta, Dallas, Indy, L.A., Kansas city, St. Louis The list goes on and on. I've been on a mountian higher than the clouds going through the grape vine. Stood on a boulder the size of house in the devils playground. Pulled the cabbige patch. Covered the vast varitey of teraine that Texas has to offer. Have drivenn for 20 hrs stright. Been awake and driving at every hour of the day. Non of this feals like an accomplishment. I'm just another dirty smelly truck driver thats in everyones way. I'm always lonly. But for the past month I have never felt so alone in my life. I only think about one thing. I'm dealling with it all. And you all know what it is that im dealling ith. But no one I know will ever go through it like I am. Driving has gotton me no where. I always end up full circle back here in Michigan with nothing to show for it. I can tell stories about my experence on the road till the cows come home. I can share my memories with all and most i have. But no one has ever been there to share them with me while i was making them. Althoe i have always been by myself. She always made me feal like it was worth it. Like i was getting some where. Slowly to a better place in life. In a split second with a few words that changed everything. So it's done. Seems shes celibrating. Quote" I don't like doing this. Hurting people is not the busniess im in, it's quit the oppisit." Well quoite me on the. You did. You have peireced my heart further than i thought humany ever possiable. I can endure physical pain. But this is unbearable. You have hurt me more than anyone ever has at any time in my life. That includes the last time you hurt me. You say you became an rn because you wanted to touch peoples lives and make a difference. You have touch mine more than any one else you have ever crossed paths with and the way you have made me feal is like dieing. You make me want to kill myself!!! Live with that. I want to hate. I want to be ok. I want to be able to say I'm over it. But i'm not. I'm more angry than i ever have been in my entier life. But i'm hideing it more than i ever have. There is nothing that anyone can do. Everyone tells me it's going to be ok. Beliving them is helping. My will to live outweighs my current desier for death. But I'm almost sure i'm going to snap. I just hope i heal enough before i do. This is not a cry for help. I'm just really angery. Today moreso than yesterday. But not as much as the day befor. It varries day to day. Any one can try and help. Have no fear i desier to take no one else. I desier to not take myself. I'm just verry verry verry angry. No i take that back. you don't try an help me in any way. U know who you are. Ya see i desier to bring you pain and to have terrable things happen to you but i don't want to auctaly hurt you. You will pay for what you have done. I know i have and i am paying for it now. But i feal i have done nothing to feal like i do. This is not a threte. But leave me alone. Say nothing to me at all. About anything for any reason. See i dont desier to hurt u but i do want revenge and everything you say to me pushes me that much closer to the edge. I was hurt worse last time but this time im hurt and verry angery. For your own saftey and for mine, that is if you do still care at all and i don't really think you do. Stay away and keep quiet. Say nothing at all. U will get whats owed to you and what you deserve. I will get revenge but in my own way. With pice of mind. It will just take a verry long time. My dreams are all i have left. I've always wanted what my pearents have. To be a husband and have a loving wife. Beautifull kids. See thats what I've always wanted out of my life. But screw it. It's just not ment for me. Not at this time. I have nothing left. So it is time to start over. This time im going for my dreams. And when I'm standing on that podium thanking everyone, my family and friends, yes even you, i'll thank you for giving me the chance to live my life how i want to, then you will know what i mean. Then you will realise what it is to acomplish a dream. I'm sure not any has a clue what I'm talking about. But everyone can relate to the concept. It is only then that you will truly be sorry. But i know I'll never hear the truth. It is rare that the truth isn't distorted by fear pride and lusting for what we don't have. Truth llyes in love and the truth lies in the fear of. 2 doubbles down, 1 tripple to go, 5 up, fully compressed, wide open. To the sky i reach. Stareing deathe in the face, I push the fine line and to cheet death is the dream i will to live.
12:49 AM
Dude, it seems like she wants you for the money if she keeps leaving when times get tough. My grandparents have been together for I think 40 years, and he lost his job last year due to Cirrhosis of the Liver. She still sticks with him every single day of his life, you want commitment. And she obviously is not committed enough to you if she keeps leaving when times get rough. What's she going to do when she's down on her own luck, broke on the side of the road maybe one day, you drive slowly by look at her, she asks can you help? You can be a good guy and help(what i would do) or you can say, I'm sorry but things are just rough right now. Relationships are hard, especially when a lot of people just want someone to support them. But dump you once shame on her, dump you twice shame on you. So do you want to keep going through this heartache or do you want to find someone who will always be there for you? Or you could go bar hopping to "let off some steam."
bull p00.. this is a huge cry for help!!
Your lookin at things all wrong..
This time in your life is not about her.. she's gone.. drop it (dont mean to be so harsh but..)
This time in your life is about YOU.. you said it yourself above.. your seeing things most people never see.. that is growing you on the inside.. some day
all of this so called "nothing" is going to be helpful to you and/or someone else...
everything your experiencing.. and tossing asside as " not an accomplishment " is making you a "unique" individual... the loss of her is actually giving you strength to deal with true hardship, learn to deal with it!
stop beating yourself up over a woman.. she was'nt worth it to begin with (just bein brutally honest here) as most people have stated..
Take this time to appreciate the other woman (mother nature) she can touch you deeper than any other if you let her...
some day you will be able to tell the storys in detail, of the most beautiful sunsets and mountain top views any man has ever witnessed.. and that story will melt a womans heart if she sees it in your eyes. without the experience.. that depth doesnt exist.
some day you will be able to tell a child the story of how you survived unsurmountalble odds against a raging snow storm in the dead of winter (yea.. with the kids you can embelish the story a little).. that child will gaze upon you as if you are a superhero.. there is no greater feeling in the world.
Take this time for what it is.. a time of personel inner growth.. stop being so selfish, get over it and appreciate what is truly in front of you, quit feeling sorry for yourself for what you don't have.. life rarely gives you what you WANT.. thats not what life is about.. life gives you what you NEED.. and you may not agree or see the reasoning.. but there is a reason. You are currenty being grown for someone that can truly appreciate you for what you have yet to become.
Good luck..
P.S. not hatin here.. just some tuff love from the perspective of someone thats lived it.
Quote from: Hammerlane on February 28, 2009, 05:16:07 PM
bull p00.. this is a huge cry for help!!
Your lookin at things all wrong..
This time in your life is not about her.. she's gone.. drop it (dont mean to be so harsh but..)
This time in your life is about YOU.. you said it yourself above.. your seeing things most people never see.. that is growing you on the inside.. some day
all of this so called "nothing" is going to be helpful to you and/or someone else...
everything your experiencing.. and tossing asside as " not an accomplishment " is making you a "unique" individual... the loss of her is actually giving you strength to deal with true hardship, learn to deal with it!
stop beating yourself up over a woman.. she was'nt worth it to begin with (just bein brutally honest here) as most people have stated..
Take this time to appreciate the other woman (mother nature) she can touch you deeper than any other if you let her...
some day you will be able to tell the storys in detail, of the most beautiful sunsets and mountain top views any man has ever witnessed.. and that story will melt a womans heart if she sees it in your eyes. without the experience.. that depth doesnt exist.
some day you will be able to tell a child the story of how you survived unsurmountalble odds against a raging snow storm in the dead of winter (yea.. with the kids you can embelish the story a little).. that child will gaze upon you as if you are a superhero.. there is no greater feeling in the world.
Take this time for what it is.. a time of personel inner growth.. stop being so selfish, get over it and appreciate what is truly in front of you, quit feeling sorry for yourself for what you don't have.. life rarely gives you what you WANT.. thats not what life is about.. life gives you what you NEED.. and you may not agree or see the reasoning.. but there is a reason. You are currenty being grown for someone that can truly appreciate you for what you have yet to become.
Good luck..
P.S. not hatin here.. just some tuff love from the perspective of someone thats lived it.
what he said....
Quote from: Hammerlane on February 28, 2009, 05:16:07 PM
bull p00.. this is a huge cry for help!!
Your lookin at things all wrong..
This time in your life is not about her.. she's gone.. drop it (dont mean to be so harsh but..)
This time in your life is about YOU.. you said it yourself above.. your seeing things most people never see.. that is growing you on the inside.. some day
all of this so called "nothing" is going to be helpful to you and/or someone else...
everything your experiencing.. and tossing asside as " not an accomplishment " is making you a "unique" individual... the loss of her is actually giving you strength to deal with true hardship, learn to deal with it!
stop beating yourself up over a woman.. she was'nt worth it to begin with (just bein brutally honest here) as most people have stated..
Take this time to appreciate the other woman (mother nature) she can touch you deeper than any other if you let her...
some day you will be able to tell the storys in detail, of the most beautiful sunsets and mountain top views any man has ever witnessed.. and that story will melt a womans heart if she sees it in your eyes. without the experience.. that depth doesnt exist.
some day you will be able to tell a child the story of how you survived unsurmountalble odds against a raging snow storm in the dead of winter (yea.. with the kids you can embelish the story a little).. that child will gaze upon you as if you are a superhero.. there is no greater feeling in the world.
Take this time for what it is.. a time of personel inner growth.. stop being so selfish, get over it and appreciate what is truly in front of you, quit feeling sorry for yourself for what you don't have.. life rarely gives you what you WANT.. thats not what life is about.. life gives you what you NEED.. and you may not agree or see the reasoning.. but there is a reason. You are currenty being grown for someone that can truly appreciate you for what you have yet to become.
Good luck..
P.S. not hatin here.. just some tuff love from the perspective of someone thats lived it.
Thanks bro. U of all others on the site know what the "life" is all about. I've meet u breefliy at the mounds once and don't know you at all really but I know your experence and know you've lived it, the "life" of a truck driver. I've told many of the stories, the sun sets on the mountians the snow storms ect. I smile while theres tears in my eyes thinking about thoes things. An i have mesmerised "her", friends and family with thoes stories. But what they dont here is the stories of the end of the day when your sitting there all by yourself just waitting for that phone call that never comes in. I know trucking has grew me up more than any thing else to this point in my life. It saved me from alchaholisem, was on my way, took me places i would have never seen, and memories I'll never forget. To be able to tell my kids thoes stories is impossable. I have non. I'm ready for that. I think the loss of her bothers me much less than the loss of the plans we had and what was to be our futer. I know in my heart shes not worth it. I've covered all the logical explinations. When i wright like above it's in the moments i'm on the edge and wrighting it out keeps me from going over. The industry as u know as well as I do is a love hate relationship. It's like the byTch that just broke my heart. You seem almost offened by the fact that one of your family members is giving up on the life because of some stupid byTch. I don't feal that i'm one of the sterring wheel holders. I feal that im one of profesionals out there on the road. But I just can't handel it any more. I've lost more than I've gained because of it. A girlfriend and then a fieance, differnt girls. My home, lost touch with friends, don't see my family about to loose my quad and my truck. Perty much have nothing left and living with my pearents when i come home. The life has just left a bad taste in my mouth. I'm giving up on it in another 6 months and going to collage. Hell if i'm gonna start over at 30 may as well really go for it.
hope this never happens to me i see it alot though ==thumbsdown
Quote from: LowSbody on February 28, 2009, 08:00:40 PM
Quote from: Hammerlane on February 28, 2009, 05:16:07 PM
bull p00.. this is a huge cry for help!!
Your lookin at things all wrong..
This time in your life is not about her.. she's gone.. drop it (dont mean to be so harsh but..)
This time in your life is about YOU.. you said it yourself above.. your seeing things most people never see.. that is growing you on the inside.. some day
all of this so called "nothing" is going to be helpful to you and/or someone else...
everything your experiencing.. and tossing asside as " not an accomplishment " is making you a "unique" individual... the loss of her is actually giving you strength to deal with true hardship, learn to deal with it!
stop beating yourself up over a woman.. she was'nt worth it to begin with (just bein brutally honest here) as most people have stated..
Take this time to appreciate the other woman (mother nature) she can touch you deeper than any other if you let her...
some day you will be able to tell the storys in detail, of the most beautiful sunsets and mountain top views any man has ever witnessed.. and that story will melt a womans heart if she sees it in your eyes. without the experience.. that depth doesnt exist.
some day you will be able to tell a child the story of how you survived unsurmountalble odds against a raging snow storm in the dead of winter (yea.. with the kids you can embelish the story a little).. that child will gaze upon you as if you are a superhero.. there is no greater feeling in the world.
Take this time for what it is.. a time of personel inner growth.. stop being so selfish, get over it and appreciate what is truly in front of you, quit feeling sorry for yourself for what you don't have.. life rarely gives you what you WANT.. thats not what life is about.. life gives you what you NEED.. and you may not agree or see the reasoning.. but there is a reason. You are currenty being grown for someone that can truly appreciate you for what you have yet to become.
Good luck..
P.S. not hatin here.. just some tuff love from the perspective of someone thats lived it.
Thanks bro. U of all others on the site know what the "life" is all about. I've meet u breefliy at the mounds once and don't know you at all really but I know your experence and know you've lived it, the "life" of a truck driver. I've told many of the stories, the sun sets on the mountians the snow storms ect. I smile while theres tears in my eyes thinking about thoes things. An i have mesmerised "her", friends and family with thoes stories. But what they dont here is the stories of the end of the day when your sitting there all by yourself just waitting for that phone call that never comes in. I know trucking has grew me up more than any thing else to this point in my life. It saved me from alchaholisem, was on my way, took me places i would have never seen, and memories I'll never forget. To be able to tell my kids thoes stories is impossable. I have non. I'm ready for that. I think the loss of her bothers me much less than the loss of the plans we had and what was to be our futer. I know in my heart shes not worth it. I've covered all the logical explinations. When i wright like above it's in the moments i'm on the edge and wrighting it out keeps me from going over. The industry as u know as well as I do is a love hate relationship. It's like the byTch that just broke my heart. You seem almost offened by the fact that one of your family members is giving up on the life because of some stupid byTch. I don't feal that i'm one of the sterring wheel holders. I feal that im one of profesionals out there on the road. But I just can't handel it any more. I've lost more than I've gained because of it. A girlfriend and then a fieance, differnt girls. My home, lost touch with friends, don't see my family about to loose my quad and my truck. Perty much have nothing left and living with my pearents when i come home. The life has just left a bad taste in my mouth. I'm giving up on it in another 6 months and going to collage. Hell if i'm gonna start over at 30 may as well really go for it.
Yea, I know.. but again, life gives you what you need,, not nesissarily what you want.. I lost alot too.. makes me appreciate what I have EARNED in this life. I did'nt "start over" till I was in my lower 30's.. I literally was living in my pickup with nothing but the clothes on my back.. just broke up with.. somebody. Felt as low as you.. was sitting at a buddies house that I had'nt seen in a while when "She" walked in..... it happened that fast and I knew it when it happened, we've been together 20 yrs this April, and I spent 1/2 that time OTR.. If she can tolerate that and trust in me that's the one I want to be with. I got lucky.. most would'nt tolerate it..
and you have'nt lost more than you've gained,, you have gained more than you know.. in time you'll understand it.. you are on a road most will never travel, you are on a road most could'nt handle.. tolerate the "end of the day" it will strengthen you. you have some hard times ahead, this is preparing you for that.
listen to the voice inside not your emotions.. trust it and it will generally send you in the right direction.
I still think about it way to much. I'm trying not to here the emotions but listen to the voice rather. but that voice has a.d.d. and keeps going HEY rember when........ Then the emotions go ohhhh sniffel 4 a second. "I HATE HER", goes the big voice, usly verbly said. Then the little voice goes no you really don't u just hate what she's done. ==kk Your really still in love with the dumb byTch you idiot. Then Big voice little voice and emotion wage war in my head. I look like jim Carrie in Me Myself and Iren going down the expressway in my semi. I just want all this daily logiacal explinating to go the funk away. I know I know. Give it time.
It's been more than to months now. I just don't know how to let go. I'm way more atached than I ever thought I was. I denied having hope for quit a while. But I still hope for it. I still want her. I'm still verry much in love with her. She said some really awfull things. But that didn't do it. That didn't make me loss any fealings for her. I'm much more emotional and sensative than normal guys. I have told her to not talk to me any more for any reason. I would still here from her about once a week. But every time i have heard from her it was another little stab in the heart. Really i know she misses her best friend and she was trying to make excuses to just talk. So I called her on it one time. Asked if this was just an excuse to try and talk. She said no I have someone else to do that for me. This same senierio came up the first time we broke up. She admited when we got back togeather she was never seeing anyone and all the bs stuff she called or txted me about was excuses to try an talk. So I put a stop to it this time. Thertened her with money. I owe her a small sume from when my fule pump went out at thanksgiving time and didn't get a check till after the weekend. Told her not to talk to me or else. So far shes complyed. But at the same time I still wanna talk to her. I too miss my best friend. But I know right now I can't. I need to get past this wanting her part. I know the logical part of it all. I know what i need to do. I just don't know how to let go of the one person, and one thing "our relationship" That i have ever really truely cared about. I would give up the rest of my life to have a meanning loving evening with her. I have plans for my futuer. Plans that do not include her. But I can't even begin to concentrate long enough because all I do is think about her. If i'm doing something that really takes concentration shes there in the back of my mind. Seems i haven't even been able to dock my semi in the past month without doing 5-6 pullups because the thought of her distracs me so much. I can't throw myself into my work cuz I do that all the time anyways. I can't do anything I like to do like fishing riding whelling ect cause i'm always stuck in my truck. When i go home it's even worse. When i'm gone I know the reason I miss her is because I'm gone. But when I go home im not at "home". I'm at my pearents house. I'm still 15 miles from where I wanna be, with her. So close, yet still so far away. I think I would be more accepting of loosing her if, god forbid, she had past away. I really do know what I gotta do. Move on. While i do love her with all my heart. I know she will, would, do this to me over and over all throughout our/my life. I can't handle this happening to me every couple of years or six months ect. I know i would not trust her to do it again eather. She gets scared and runns away to only think about it later and has regret. Then she want's to talk. I know what I gotta do. Any sugestions guys? I know it's not normal guy talk. I know i gotta give it time. I know thats what it's gonna take. But i havent even began to let her go. How do I let go of the love of my life?
olney you know what I gotta do ==dunno
beet your self up, or let it go
sorry to hear your going through such a hard time hope you can fix it within yourself soon and be able to move on best of luck my friend
To be honest I had a girl break my heart Bad. It took me a long time to fully get over it. I did not fully get over her until I met my Wife. Now I ask myself what was I thinking staying with my Ex that long and mourning for her so bad after she left. You need to get yourself out and meet other Girls. I'm not saying to jump into a relationship. But it will help you get over her just talking with other girls and knowing there interested in you.
I'm letting go. I know there is no reason to hold on. I was touched today. And I guess the 3 hr conversation with my mom last night helped alot. i know I have true genuien friends and family that are there for me. Thats where the love is that I need right now. Not with her. So I realised it's time to let go. I deleated pics and such last night. I seen 3 states today that i never have befor. I started in nebraska. Rolled through wyoming and I'm now in Utah. Absolutly beautifull!! I had a moment today that I felt greatness. I was crestin a large rolling hill in western nebraske. The sky was crystal clear blue. The rolling fields where a golden brown. Prestine bliss as far as the eye could see. My eye could see for about 30 miles off into the distance. For thoes few moments I quickly rembered why I do it. I felt on top of the world and yet so insignifacant. I was seeing a clear 60 mile radious and i was a mear spec in it. My problems where no where in mind. A few tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt at one with the true heartland of this country. It's a beautifull one. I have no idea why anyone would travel half way around the world to visit a country they don't live in whene there is so much to see right here in our own country. Not that there isn't great offerings on the other side but there is so much here that is overlooked. I seen flat wide open praries rolling hills desert terane and ended the day comming through the devils slide and seen a 10000 ft peek on the way down. Theres so much beauty right in frount of us. In front of me. I've lost alot. But i have to rember to look around once in a while to see what I'm ganing.
Quote from: Disturban on February 07, 2009, 05:26:06 AM
Start your fun here...100% FREEEEEEEEEEEEE http://www.plentyoffish.com/ ;)
Well its time to start looking. Gonna sighn up. Time for me to just try n have some fun. I think a spring fling is in order.
I have the Doctor on the phone HOLD ON.!!!!!....................................................He said go out get some strange today & Call him in the morning... ;D
Quote from: oscar_169 on April 05, 2009, 12:23:54 PM
I have the Doctor on the phone HOLD ON.!!!!!....................................................He said go out get some strange today & Call him in the morning... ;D
if i get some strange today i'm telling everybody. Ans sharing the pics with a select few. LOL
okay...well...getting some strange would do you some good....sounds like ya need it...just don't go over to Dort Highway..sounds like this girl rand you through some serious b.s. You learn if someone is right for you during the roughest parts of your relationship...honestly...at least it happened BEFORE you got married...then you would be paying more! I am sorry to hear that she did that to you...There are obviously more fish in the sea...and you will find one that will actually stick with you through thick and thin...I know Randy and I have been seeing each other for three years next month...and let me be the first to tell ya...sometime we wanna either kill eachother, or just run in opposite directions and forget we met...and honestly, finances are usually our biggest thing...and it's because he was laid off...got back to work for a few weeks and then I lost my job...so that strain of things effected us a little while...but we fought through it, and now we both have two jobs, working first and third shifts...only time we actually see eachother is when we have the five minute, "hey...time to wake up and go to work! Love ya, see you tomarrow night" and then when we do get a day off together...we sleep all day long...and yes, there have been times I wanted to just throw the towel in, but I don't cause there's too much love there...and one day you will find the women who will realize that when times are tough, that's when your bond get's stronger...Best of luck and enjoy the bachlorhood for a while longer...you will meet the right one when the time is right...
(sorry...didn't mean for this to be that long...)
Well make sure I'm on that list. 8)
No ones on the list. I'm still fishing. lol Till i get home this weekend the only way i can fish is online and thats not really working. Oh well. Was hopeing to get a date lined up for home time. Ah to hell with it time to start calling old girlfriends. Oh wait all ready did that. I'm out of options. ==shrug
Quote from: liltipsy101 on April 07, 2009, 04:16:10 AM
okay...well...getting some strange would do you some good....sounds like ya need it...just don't go over to Dort Highway..sounds like this girl rand you through some serious b.s. You learn if someone is right for you during the roughest parts of your relationship...honestly...at least it happened BEFORE you got married...then you would be paying more! I am sorry to hear that she did that to you...There are obviously more fish in the sea...and you will find one that will actually stick with you through thick and thin...I know Randy and I have been seeing each other for three years next month...and let me be the first to tell ya...sometime we wanna either kill eachother, or just run in opposite directions and forget we met...and honestly, finances are usually our biggest thing...and it's because he was laid off...got back to work for a few weeks and then I lost my job...so that strain of things effected us a little while...but we fought through it, and now we both have two jobs, working first and third shifts...only time we actually see eachother is when we have the five minute, "hey...time to wake up and go to work! Love ya, see you tomarrow night" and then when we do get a day off together...we sleep all day long...and yes, there have been times I wanted to just throw the towel in, but I don't cause there's too much love there...and one day you will find the women who will realize that when times are tough, that's when your bond get's stronger...Best of luck and enjoy the bachlorhood for a while longer...you will meet the right one when the time is right...
(sorry...didn't mean for this to be that long...)
I'm a truck driver. I would go 3-4 weeks with out seeing her. Truthfully thats why it ended. Well theres a whole lot to it. But If i would have been there daily alot of things would have been differnt and i could have seen expressions and body language. Thats verry easy to hide on the phone. Her dad died young and shes afraid with me being gone all the time shes gonna get a phone call one day and I'm gonna be dead and shes not going to have a father for our kids. Don't have kids now but shes afraid of history repeating its self. She needs help cause shes gonna go through this with anyone. It's her fear. She aknowledgs the problem but dosen't admit it. It's just to hard for her to bring up thoes feallings connected to her dad dieing. For good reason. She was in the car when her dad died and almost died too. Was in a coma 4 2 weeks and when she came out of it had broken ribs 3 breaks to her right leg, broken collar bone a huge open wound on her stomach, no memory of what happened, and her father was allready burried. She never got closuer and went through sevrial surgerys after ward for multipul reasons. This happened at the age of 10. I spent the last year trying to figuer this out. I can't make things right an i can't change her fear.. I've let it go. It was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life!
I am an over the road driver as well and it sounds like its all about her,not you. Has she thought about your sacrifices you have made goin over the road? not being able to be with friends and family, doing all the fun stuff like every body else. Has she shown any signs that she cares how lonly you are sleeping in back of a truck and eating at truck stops day in and day out. The head aches of traffic you have to deal with every day or making that wrong turn or missing a turn then tryin to figure out how to get the truck turned around safely and oh, sure hope this is a truck route. If you are having this problem now, its best to move on. It is not about the money or material things in life, thats whats wrong with the world today and relatoinships. Its about love,either you have it or you dont and sounds like she didnt. It takes a strong woman to be with a truck driver period. If she is not willing to fight with you, you are better off without her because right now she is fighting against you and making everything about her,not you and her. I met my wife when I was 19 and hit the road as soon as I turned 21. I'm now 28, been married 4 years 2 kids and 1 on the way and she still loves me and I love her. You have to have a supportive woman when you drive truck, a woman that will stand behind you every step of the way. Mine does and thats because she knows that with out me we are in the street and starving. She is supportive and willing to accept what ever I do to support my family because she knows jobs are far and few and the only money out there is driving truck. Has your girl thought about that and if not, would she stay with you if you left your job for minimum wage? thats about all your going to find right now. Put yourself in my shoes. In the past 7 months I have lost a job making $53,000 a year, got another job ended up in the whole for 3 months, my mini van got repoed, my truck got repoed, lost everything. Landed another job worked 3 months, (recently) fell out of the back of my trailer, broke my wrist and elbow just as things were starting to get better. When I got home, me and my wife kissed told each other that we love each other and now I am goin into week 4 without pay.I am fighting with workmans comp to get paid, scrounging around just to buy milk fore the kids, BUT, every day we kiss, say I love you's and that it will get better. Would your girl be able to do the same or would she walk out again, and again? these are things you need to find out. Is she really willing to fight for the us in the relationship or is it the just me,me,me kind of fight. You know the my needs, my wants, my feelings. Forget you its about her. I would say that you would be better off moving on. Its not going to be easy and it hurts I know. But when and if you do move on to the next girl, BE UP FRONT. Tell her you are an over the road truck driver and she will accept it and be wiiling to support you and make it work or she'll roll out just like the one you just lost. Just look at it like this, are you willing to spend the rest of your life with this girl that every time things get bad and then worse, she leaves? I know I wouldn't. Whats the point. Best to move on and find someone willing to stick it out thruogh thick and thin, bad times and good times, not just hang out for the good times. Good luck to ya man.
Quote from: gator82 on April 08, 2009, 03:32:33 AM
I am an over the road driver as well and it sounds like its all about her,not you. Has she thought about your sacrifices you have made goin over the road? not being able to be with friends and family, doing all the fun stuff like every body else. Has she shown any signs that she cares how lonly you are sleeping in back of a truck and eating at truck stops day in and day out. The head aches of traffic you have to deal with every day or making that wrong turn or missing a turn then tryin to figure out how to get the truck turned around safely and oh, sure hope this is a truck route. If you are having this problem now, its best to move on. It is not about the money or material things in life, thats whats wrong with the world today and relatoinships. Its about love,either you have it or you dont and sounds like she didnt. It takes a strong woman to be with a truck driver period. If she is not willing to fight with you, you are better off without her because right now she is fighting against you and making everything about her,not you and her. I met my wife when I was 19 and hit the road as soon as I turned 21. I'm now 28, been married 4 years 2 kids and 1 on the way and she still loves me and I love her. You have to have a supportive woman when you drive truck, a woman that will stand behind you every step of the way. Mine does and thats because she knows that with out me we are in the street and starving. She is supportive and willing to accept what ever I do to support my family because she knows jobs are far and few and the only money out there is driving truck. Has your girl thought about that and if not, would she stay with you if you left your job for minimum wage? thats about all your going to find right now. Put yourself in my shoes. In the past 7 months I have lost a job making $53,000 a year, got another job ended up in the whole for 3 months, my mini van got repoed, my truck got repoed, lost everything. Landed another job worked 3 months, (recently) fell out of the back of my trailer, broke my wrist and elbow just as things were starting to get better. When I got home, me and my wife kissed told each other that we love each other and now I am goin into week 4 without pay.I am fighting with workmans comp to get paid, scrounging around just to buy milk fore the kids, BUT, every day we kiss, say I love you's and that it will get better. Would your girl be able to do the same or would she walk out again, and again? these are things you need to find out. Is she really willing to fight for the us in the relationship or is it the just me,me,me kind of fight. You know the my needs, my wants, my feelings. Forget you its about her. I would say that you would be better off moving on. Its not going to be easy and it hurts I know. But when and if you do move on to the next girl, BE UP FRONT. Tell her you are an over the road truck driver and she will accept it and be wiiling to support you and make it work or she'll roll out just like the one you just lost. Just look at it like this, are you willing to spend the rest of your life with this girl that every time things get bad and then worse, she leaves? I know I wouldn't. Whats the point. Best to move on and find someone willing to stick it out thruogh thick and thin, bad times and good times, not just hang out for the good times. Good luck to ya man.
I know it's her. Shes got a majior issue that she has got to over come befor she can commit to anyone. That being the fear of abandenment and commitment. It's 90% her. She understands the harsh life i deal with day in and day out but can't understand or accept when hard times hit. Shes an RN in the OR and make real good money. On top of that she has an ass load of cash from the lawsuite when her dad died. i made 22,000 last year including unemployment the first 3 months of the year when i was laid off from gravel train. So i took a shity otr job and voila. Got my bills back on track and strugeled to do so. While she on the other hand bought a house an new car and to new boston terriers with paper at 800 a pop and paid cash for it all! She has so much and has had it for so long, got the first pay out from the lawsuite at 16 i think, that she dosen't understandWhat it's like to be broke and is unacceptable to her to be so. I estimated her to be worth about 3 million. But I didn't care about any of the money. Didn't know she had it till after I fell in love with her. Good news is. I'm over what she did. i have forgave her for what she said and i will never trust her again. ya not trusting her is a good thing cause everyone is rught. She will do this to me again. If i don't trust her that means i will continue not to want her any more. I have had eough. A year of beatting my head aginst the wall trying to figuer out the real problem wich is lack of communication when there is a problem because shes to scared to face problems because she can't deal with a possiable loss, is not worth it any more. She put all her heart into me when things are good. When things go wrong she pushes me away in fear. I'm done with it. i don't desier her abuse anymore. i talked to her a few weeks ago and brought up the daddy issue. At first she started to cry and said can we just drop this. I didn't let it drop. Sheaknowledges the problem but dosent admit to it. Not even to her self. When i realised that day that she could not admit to it even thoe she really knows it's there then tthere is nothing more i can do to help her and no reason for me to hope for her or us when she can't deal with the pain or her dad dieing to work out a current fear caused by it. I've done all i can and she don't love me enogh to get help. She never will love anyone enogh to get help. I don't think her own happieness will ever be enough for her to get help. She just moves on to something or someone else thath hasn't seen the depth and feeds off that for a while. I just happen to be the first in her life to care enough to stick it out this long an to ask the questions no one else has. I'll find better. I know I'm not over her. But It's been long enough that she hasn't been in my day to day life that i m no longer in love with her. Just he memories.